Thursday, September 29, 2005

re-create history

ever wondered wad it means to be indifferent?
read dis:

in·dif·fer·ent ( P ) Pronunciation Key (n-dfr-nt, -dfrnt)adj.
Having no particular interest or concern; apathetic: indifferent to the sufferings of others.
Having no marked feeling for or against: She remained indifferent toward their proposal.


dun u pple tink dat many of us young pple are behaving dis way?
is dis a gd thing? of cos not.
sometimes i wonder why most of us are like dat.. i tink it's bloody pathetic.
when pple can curb being late, they dun.
when pple can curb lying or cheating, they dun.
when pple can curb being a bastard, they dun.
when pple can curb certain bad habits, they jus dun!
why?

cos they r jus being indifferent.
they simply cant be bothered.
maybe the world needs another Hitler to make pple realise we shud all stop daydreaming and expecting or waiting for things to happen.

well like Jesus says: He who is sinless, cast the 1st stone.
at least i noe i make a conscious effort. i wudnt say the same for some others.

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i tink dere's alot of things dat i wish i cud hav changed.. in my past.
if i cud turn back time n altered certain things, i wud.
ask me if i regret certain actions of mine? yes i do.
why? i duno but i jus do. some pple did not deserve getting hurt by me.
seems like there r many things i wish i didnt do.
but everything happens for a reason, so pple move on.
perhaps on my birthday, i shall wish for a time travel machine.
so dat i cud re-create history.

perhaps make things a lil better.
we love some, we miss some.
the question is, do they still feel the same?
everyone wishes for a fairytale ending.. but can dat happen?
does dat even exist?
i was taught to love and give wifout counting the cost.
do unto others wad u want others to do unto u..

wud i always be like dat?
tink dat's wearing me out. always wanting to try is tiring.
perhaps like some one once said to me "u shud stop trying to please others"
i realli need to work on dat. perhaps dat statment has some truth in it.
selfless vs selfish

at dis day and age, every single human is selfish, we look out onli for ourselves,
me, myself and i mentality
how crappy.

now. abt fun.
wad is fun?
wad is the pleasure of fun?
wad benefits does it reap a person?
k la.. quite a lot. varies from person to person.
everybody wants to have fun.
but dere's always a limit to everything.
when do we noe when to stop? the answer is self-control.

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as christians, or those who claim to be christians, shudnt we consistently try to amulate the virtues of Christ?
apparently we r not trying hard enough. go to church, c it all.
at the end of the day, it boils down to our culture. the true blue s'porean culture.
SUCKS.
fucked up attitude and stinking expectations.
every one walks ard wif their noses stuck in the air.
walk along the streets, c it all.
in spore, if u walk down the streets wif a smile on ur face, pple will tink ure mad/ crazy
but in aussie, or america, its a diff culture altogether.
clearly shows sporeans aint all dat friendly.
definately not courteous either.

ok alrite. i beta stop bitching b4 i'll nvr stop.
peace all.

Dictionary.com

can u differentiate the meanings of the following words?
perhaps most of u got no time to flip the dictionary or are unclear of the meanings,
so pls take some time to read below.

love ( P ) Pronunciation Key (lv)n.
A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.


pos·ses·sive
( P ) Pronunciation Key (p-zsv)adj.
Of or relating to ownership or possession.
Having or manifesting a desire to control or dominate another, especially in order to limit that person's relationships with others: a possessive parent.
Grammar. Of, relating to, or being a noun or pronoun case that indicates possession.


re·la·tion·ship ( P ) Pronunciation Key (r-lshn-shp)n.
The condition or fact of being related; connection or association.
Connection by blood or marriage; kinship.
A particular type of connection existing between people related to or having dealings with each other: has a close relationship with his siblings.
A romantic or sexual involvement.


ob·li·ga·tion ( P ) Pronunciation Key (bl-gshn)n.

Something owed as payment or in return for a special service or favor.
The service or favor for which one is indebted to another.
The state, fact, or feeling of being indebted to another for a special service or favor received.


pri·or·i·ty ( P ) Pronunciation Key (pr-ôr-t, -r-)n. pl. pri·or·i·ties
Precedence, especially established by order of importance or urgency.
An established right to precedence.
An authoritative rating that establishes such precedence.
A preceding or coming earlier in time.
Something afforded or deserving prior attention.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

why me?

here's a news flash... Lyd is not operating in her tippest toppest condition AGAIN!!

WHY ME??? NOT AGAIN!!!!!

sigh... dis is unfortunate man.. sneezing, coughing, itchy & dry throat, bad headaches...
they're all back!! all of em'! damn shit man!
all my cod liver oil dun seem 2 be workin!! heh
as i'm typing dis entry, u can jus imagine me blowing my nose, sniffing real hard n stuff...
yup dat's me.. dat's lyd for u..

how can dis be? not 1 week b4 i go to bali!! =( *sobzzzz*
cant wait for dis get-away man.. hopefully it'll do me some gd..
but i'm wonderin... how cud nasi goreng & mee goreng possibly do me any gd?
hmmmmmmmm.... dat's a thot..
well food therapy perhaps? :P
dunkin doughnuts, baskin robbins ice cream, jaffels, teh botel, the sun, sand and ... perhaps retail therapy?
ok i alr drafted my shopping list & trust me, i'm keepin it to a minimum...
only the local products and those i realli need.

heh. well realli hope my parents will enjoy as much as i noe my sis n i wud! ;) teehee
bali is paradise man... when u c the beach, u'll be thanking God that he created the world so beautiful so perfect.

exams are slightly less then a mth away. keeping my fingers crossed on dat 1.
3 papers.. duno how dis will all work out. my 1st uni exams. *gasp*
will it be scary? well at least aft it i noe i'm 1 sem down, 3 more to go b4 i become a graduate! haa! dat's provided all goes well... n me dun havta repeat any modules... =P

well dis morning, b4 i set out to the dentist, i was sitting on my bed, lookin at how messy my damn unpacked cupboard was.. when suddenly my ears tuned in to music coming frm opposite my hse! guess wad it was?!

Lyd's favourite tune!! "If We Hold On Together"
dis song.. my gdnesss.. has been my all time classic cartoon tune man...
remember? the main theme song for Land Before Time???
dat's 1 of Lyd's favourite cartoons!!!!! even til now i must say... hee..
the primary sch was playing it as replacement for the recess over bell.
when i heard it, the 1st thing dat came to my mind was Grace.
i remember.. my mummy used to say 1 of e lil dinosaurs called Ducky reminds her of Grace.
hee! jus so u noe.. my sis is Sarah... the 3 horn. =X
*muahahahahahahahahahahahahaha*

ahemmmm.. kk back to wad i was saying..
ya so dat's y i thot abt my cuzy..
did we watch dat cartoon together b4 cuz? i tink we did rite? like extremely long ago got rite?
:P
yea.. anyway today is my bumming day...
yesterday was the last presentation for sem 3.. felt that Fanis and I did a grt job.
*pat on our backs*
at least Patricia looked pleased wif us.. tho our slides need adjustments here n dere..
=) so all's gd
thurs is my last assignment submission. which 2 of my grp mates hav so kindly taken over my responsibility to edit and compile.

today marks exactly 5 more weeks to my birthday... heh..
wonder how's it gonna be like dis yr?
thankfully exams will be over by den so i can do wadever i want. haa

hmm.. Fie's off to Brunei soon.. wont get to send him off this time.. but at least i'll get to say bye.
gd luck wif the training and stay alive! haa. dun lose ur way ya.. :P
and pile on the whitening lotion!! hurhur..
take care of urself most imptly..
cya when u get back.

Monday, September 26, 2005

especially for my cuzy, Grace

this is a special tribute to my dearest cousin Grace, who has already and will continue to leave a huge mark in my life,

whom i have been missing ever since the moment she stepped thru the glass panels into transit area,

whom i hav shared countless laughters and tears with,

who i felt nvr ever judged me no matter wad stupid things i did,

who nvr failed to be dere for me whenever i needed her,

who had always been and will always be my pillar of strength,

who is and will always be my best fren and confidant,

my study partner,

my hanging & chilling out buddy,

my shopping and chatting kaki,

one dat shared my photos taking & trigger happy moments,

the one i 'set-out' with to collect our O level results,

the one i accompanied to TP to sign up for HTM course,

the one who roped me into TPSU D&D committee,

for every single thing and more cuz,

Thank u for every thing.

here's a lil prayer for u cuz..
Angel of God my guardian dear,
to whom God's love commits Grace here,
ever this day be at her side,
to light and guard,
to rule and guide.
Amen.

cuzy, i miss u loads.
tk gd care of urself.
cant wait to c u back in s'pore.

~~~~~ love ya cuzy ~~~~~

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Baby Blackie 9


hee! my precious Getz jus got hm frm seeing the doctor.. (servicing)

Baby Blackie 8


Manual Gear ; Beige Upholstery

Baby Blackie 7


to the left of the steering wheel is the stereo system of cos but lets not forget u can mount ur MP3 player into it and play ur MP3s in the car!

Baby Blackie 6


back seat (oh ya.. below the front passenger seat is a 10 disc multi changer)

Baby Blackie's 5


the interior (driver's front seat area)

Baby Blackie 4

Baby Blackie 3


Front View

Baby Blackie 2


back view of baby blackie

Baby Blackie 1


hear ye hear ye! zooming in on 210905 is the birth of the face-lift model of the Kia Rio! dis baby here doesnt hav me on its drivers' list dats for sure! haa..
i shall jus stick to being a passenger of dis sweetie..

BEP Review

well u guys din miss out on anything much...
cept Fergie's ASS
woohoooo~~~~~~~ *wolf howls & whistles*

my my my... wif an ass like dat and her hips moving ooooweeeeeee...
i tink i'm in love!!!
she is HOT HOT HOT!!!

ok so like i was saying.. BEP concert was aite la..
so those who cudnt make it - even though it was a sell out concert
it was jus aite..
perhaps the crowd expected more frm BEP la.. but cannot blame cos they jus got here frm L.A attendin the Emmy's.. n before dat they were in Japan for a concert too.. so ya..

oh wellz.. so much so for free tix. luckily i din hav 2 pay... heh. i wud b so pissed off wif myself if i did. but dats jus me la.. :P

ms cheapskate signing off~

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Black Eyed Peas

alrite guys... who's jealous?
Lyd's goin to attend the Black Eyes Peas concert in another 2hrs time! =P
dun worry, if any one wants to know how it went, can always call me ya? ;)

haii dis shud b the last of my free passes to concerts now dat sis is moving to sentosa.
damn! to tink abt it, i dun even get a damn free pass into sentosa man... heh. govt bodies.. SUCK!

anyway like i was saying.. i shall enjoy the concert tonite! haa!
peace out ya'll..

In Loving Memory...

This is a little special tribute to little Moley...

Pris dearest, if ure reading dis, i'm really sorry to hear abt Moley's passing...
I hope u will feel better soon.
It was indeed sad to hear..
take care babe.

Monday, September 19, 2005

STOP and take a look

many a times we're all too busy doing this and that, going here and there
sometimes we shud jus STOP and Take a Look
why? some might ask..
some wud also say.. " y tink so much?"
others, "is she out of her mind? y she in reflective mode?" etc etc

but guys. perhaps u shud all realli tink abt dis.
amidst all the hustle n bustle of ur life, u shud realli spend some time to recollect urself.
to be at peace n to be at 1 wif urself

sometimes its not abt 'dun tink too much'
or cheer up life aint dat bad
yup ure rite. life isnt dat bad
wadever doesnt kill u makes u stronger in it?

but i guess dats jus me. i'll always b me
i like to tink, i like to reflect
guess john's been too busy wif his life dat he has forgotten his cuzy..
*sigh*
we havent bonded in a realli long time..
we havent been giving each other our 'reality checks' in an extremely long time
n dats bad
he does it best
cant do dat wif anyone else cept grace or john.

mayb its the depth of our relationship la.
growin up together n all.
yup. so hopefully.. i'll hear frm john soon enuff.. dat ass.
no point me scolding him on my blog cos he prolly doesnt know i hav 1
dat ass...

ok anyway.. so as i was saying... do keep dis in mind.
Stop and Take a Look.

Bali! Here We Come!!

WooHooooooo~~!!
super cant wait til 04Oct!
i'll be off to Bali guys! =)
dun worry, as usual n as trigger happy as i always m,
i will take loadsa pics for all to c! ;)

dis time i'll b main the trip down south wif my parents n sis.
gonna stay at our 2nd choice resort, Harris cos sadly, Mecure is fully booked.
oh well. just our luck
but Harris dun look dat bad .. anyhows we aint gonna stay in e damn rm all day so who cares! :P

jus so long as not dodgy can liaoz..
we're gonna take my parents to go c where sis n i stayed the last time..
haha.. Un's Hotel! ;)
hey it was nice ok! i'll always remember dat place n my 8days dere.

sigh.. dis time wont b able to braid my hair..
but i found beta ways to put daddy's money to gd use.
shant tell u all yet. =P
stay tuned for more details...

yup. so i'll be MIA frm 04-07Oct..
need anything sms me! ;)

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Round and Round

!!!Happy Mooncake Day!!! =)

Hope u guys had a good day!

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

heh

okok so i have been "reading" quite a bit..
not really so either cos i happen to come across these passages in church last sunday
really felt very enlightened after mass dat evening.

thot abt the pple in my life. esp ivan.
b4 anyone gets any big reactions frm e mere mention of dat fella's name.
come on.. he's still my fren... n 2ndly, he's still a part of me la u noe..

so ok.. the gist of it is i need to learn to let go of things and move on in life. however,
dis is easier said den done. need alot of time to get thru dis.
no amt of talk or advice is gonna work. i've to do dis on my own.
dis is wad happens when the love of ur life hurts u like it doesnt matter.

so anyway..
okok back to lyd's boring lifestyle
i've been pissed off majorly by a certain some1.. n some1sss
shant mention names
well.. little things irritate me these days so beware.
things will certainly get beta by 29sept la
so pls b patient wif me.
it aint ez but i'm trying, be assured.

i need my frens to b understanding rite now.
perhaps for a change pple shud b more tolerant wif me
instead of me having to put up wif pple's shit all the f**king time.

i need peace. i need space. i need time.

Easy Read 1

Easy Read 1: Eccelesiasticus 27:30 - 28:7
Don't bear grudges!!
Grudge and wrath, these also are abominations in which sinful people excel.
He who demands revenge will suffer the vengence of the Lord who keeps a strict account of his sins. Forgive the mistakes of your neighbour and you may ask that your sins be forgiven.
If a man bears resentment against another, how can he ask God for healing? If he has no compassion on others, how can he pray for forgiveness for his sins?As long as he, mere flesh, is resentful, who will obtain his pardon?
Remember your end and give up hatred; keep in mind your final corruption in the grace and keep the commandments.
Remember the commandments and do not bear grudges against your neighbour. Remember the covenant with the Most High and overlook the offense.
Refrain from quarrelling and you will avoid sin; the hot-headed man sparks off disputes...

when 1 is angry and needs to forgive, pls read: Matthew 18:21 - 35
for the benefit of those who do not have a bible, pls do not hesitate to call Lydia.

On the topic of forgiveness:
Then Peter asked him, "Lord, how many times must I forgive the offenses of my brother or sister? Seven Times?"
Jesus answered, "No, not seven times, but seventy seven times."

If your brother or sister has sinned against you, go n point out the fault when the 2 of u are in private, and if he listens to u, u have won ur brother. If u r not listened to, take with you 1 or 2 others so that the case may be decided by the evidence of 2 or 3 witnesses. If he still refuses to listen to them, tell it to the assembled Church.......
i say to u: whatever u bind on earth, heaven will keep bound; and whatever u unbind on earth, heaven will keep unbound.

FORGIVENESS

Lydia was enlightened on 110905 at 6.11pm in Holy Family Church

Forgive your neighbour the hurt he does you,
and when you pray, your sins will be forgiven.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

sorry

sorry for the updateless blog
have been too busy to update anything
will do so when i'm more free.
sorry for any inconvenience caused
perhaps i cud use my blogging time for beta purposes such as self-reflection instead